The Music of My Life: 2014

Monday, June 9, 2014

Shrug

I'm tired. I should be sleeping, but instead I'm thinking, and as a result, blogging (of course...)

I don't know where to start in writing this down, so it may just be a jumble of thoughts. I have a friend, let's call him Sam. Sam and I get along really well, always smiling and laughing when we're together. Last night, Sam asked if I would like to go to a movie today, and I said that would be fun. Later that night, I looked up movie times, and texted him what would work for me. To summarize, I did hear back from Sam, but not about the movie, so I decided to just go alone, and let me tell you, it was great. Independence, man! (The movie, The Amazing Spider-Man 2, was incredible, by the way. I cried multiple times, and it's an action movie. Go see it.)

Anyway, normally, I would be really annoyed and upset by this turn of events. He asked me if I wanted to go, and then we never discussed it again. (For a planner, that is really frustrating.) But for some reason, I'm just done getting annoyed. I'm done putting more effort into a relationship than the other person.

Since I first started liking boys, I've been consumed by them. The most exciting times in my life mainly happened when I was developing a relationship with one of them, (even though few of them actually developed into something.) That's why I keep surprising myself by not being heartbroken when boys don't seem to care about me these days. However, it makes me super happy because I don't want my happiness or fullness of life to depend on whether or not a boy likes me, and I think I'm finally getting to that point. (YAY!!!)

So basically, right now I'm indifferent/skeptical of any relationships coming my way. Hopefully eventually a man will come along who will intentionally pursue me, and I will be safe to invest as much effort as I can. Until then, I'm going to enjoy my friends and dear, dear family.

Thanks for reading my ramblings....hopefully the next one will be more interesting/deep/thought-provoking.

Friday, May 2, 2014

What Just Happened?

First of all, let's acknowledge the fact that I haven't blogged at all this semester. That's one indication of how crazy this semester was.

I've been trying to reflect on this semester so I could have something profound to say about it, but it hasn't been working out too well. I've realized that it takes a lot of effort to think of specific memories from this semester because the whole time I was pretty much just trying to keep my head above water.

But today was the last day of classes, so there is a light at the end of the tunnel! Hopefully we can make it.

I saw this on Twitter today, and it was so perfect that I had to share.
This will be me and several of my friends come next Saturday.

On a more serious note, it makes me sad that this semester was such a blur. I am thankful, though, for my dear friends who helped me survive with some of my sanity in tact and the fact that I can return next semester for another semester of learning from incredibly talented and caring professors.

Here's hoping it will be less stressful than this semester!

Now for some pleasant memories that I can only think of because I took pictures...